9/17/2011 - Ran my first marathon.
9/17/2014 - Sat in the orthopedic doctor’s office to find out what’s really going on with my leg; wondered if I’d ever be able to run again; sulked.
You feel alone, as though you are the only one walking in a dense fog that somehow weighs like a ton of bricks. It hurts to move, it is suffocating to continue, and you feel so hollow and alone. It is in these moments that you need to hold onto the promise of tomorrow, it’s scary right now, but fear doesn’t last forever, even though it feels like it will. I hope that you find the courage to set your sails north, to look up and see the stars guiding you home. Beloved, you are not alone, even though the silence is unbearable, just know that someone is trying to yell into the void hoping to reach your ears.
I hope you find land soon, because you have been doing this on your own for so long, and I care for you. I care if you make it back to the ones you love, that you won’t just drift off into the unknown, but that you somehow make your way back to the places that know your name.
This journey is long, but it will end, and it will be a good ending, not one where you are left empty and used, but one where you are filled and loved. I hope you are brave enough to turn the pages, to keep reading the story of your life, because it’s far greater than you may think it is… Someone loves this story enough to write it, and each word brings new meaning to your life. So keep going, and may you learn to love this story as much as the stars love to shine.
T.B. LaBerge // You Matter
I’m glad I came across this. I’m not really one to talk about the stuff that goes on in my own head (lol.. I’m a therapist)… but I’m just really glad this person could say it for me.
First day of Whole30 and my niece comes to my office with a chocolate chip cookie for me that was as big as her face.
She put it next to her face for comparison purposes.
EDIT: I’m Whole30’ing to see if those anti-inflammatory claims are true because I’m at a total loss for what to do otherwise for my still aching leg. And also because I need some structure, as usual.